Topic: Damnit this pisses me off everytime (emo thread, emo to the max)

[PyroMenace]

I do this every damn time. Instead of refilling my meds in advance, I let it run dry and go bare for a few days before I finally go out again and finally pick some more up as I'm stressed, agitated, and a little depressed. Its all the more frustrating that this pill starvation affects me so much. Its in my genes I guess, my brother is having trouble with it too.

Last night I had a dream where it just felt like complete misery, nothing really happened in it. It was like every ounce of joy was sucked dry from me and I woke up completely drained and feeling like someone I knew died. I've talked with Megan about all this and I learned today it stresses her the fuck out. Ah well, this is just a rant post, I used to be in a much worse state than this. I always think back to how much shit I went through to get back to where I am now and its a little easier to cope.

[Quemaqua]

Seriously man, just get the stuff before you run out.  Even if you aren't on something that's really mood-altering or that effects your emotional climate, it can be hard if you're used to it and end up off it for a while.  Anything that's in your system regularly like that can be a real bitch, and that's a roller coaster you don't want to be on, for sure.

[Ghandi]

Hang in there, man. It's good to vent on here but it's even better to talk to the people close to you to get good advise & reassurance. Talk to some people close to you other than Megan if you feel comfortable.  Also I think it's important not to view the drugs as a crutch - there are other factors involved, after all.

You're strong enough as it is - there's no need to stress.

[Raisa]

you druggie! 

just kidding... yah, be good to yourself and others around keep stocked.  i have a problem with taking my meds too...  but i always have them on hand.