not to be too melodramatic, but my life's a big pile of shit! it's all my own fault, but it still fucking sucks.
i've never been the sunniest person, but a couple of failed relationships, some shitty jobs, and probably too much drink and drugs have taken their toll over the last year or so. i haven't been to work for the last couple of months, as i don't think i could face being around my co-workers or customers without smacking the fuck out of someone. the only time when i feel anything other than anger, hatred, or frustration is when i'm drunk or stoned. i'm going to have to move out of my current place at the end of january, but have neither the funds or motivation to look for anything else.
on the upside, i've lost about 20 pounds and have grown an awesome beard.